Untitled: Unemployment, School and Other Stuff
These are the final days of my contract (by choice) and the past 3 years have been, interesting, to say the least. Sure, it’s been fun, but it’s also been the most frustrating, infuriating and downright soul sucking years of my life.
I took the decision to terminate the contract alongside my parents who supported me in the decision to go back to school and even gave me an upfront cheque for quite a bit of money, with the condition that I do my best in the following years. Sure as hell beats doing the same thing over and over again every single day with barely any time for myself, my hobbies, my projects, and, most importantly, my health.
In the past 3 years my health has been a constant roller coaster of good and bad times. New wounds, new scars and, most importantly of all, old wounds coming back to haunt me.
Since my work is essentially a desk job, my spine has been constantly under varying forms of stress thanks to my genetic predisposition to, well, be fat. Most, if not all, of my mother’s side of the family is overweight and it looks like I’m no exception. That, paired with unhealthy eating (and living) habits have pushed my weight to as much as 120kg, up from the 80-something I was at when I got employed. This is definitely not good.
I won’t bullshit myself. The weight gain is entirely my fault and I’m taking measures to distance myself from food that I know is harmful (to me at least). Now that I’ll have a more relaxed schedule I’m slowly starting to work out, not with the intent of gaining muscle mass, but in an effort to lose weight, strengthen my muscles (specially those that support my spine) and generally try to get back into whatever shape I used to be 3 years ago. Sure, it wasn’t the best, but it was far better than what I’m going through now.
On to less grim thoughts, I’m less than 2 weeks away from officially becoming a student again. After the fiasco that was Computer Science a good 6 years ago, this time I’m getting my lab coat and getting into in-depth study of Physics.
While I have some advantages in the field (some prior knowledge, my father, whom is a Physicist himself), I also have some major disadvantages. It’s been 8 years since I’ve done any actual Physics and I’m already 6-7 years older than my future peers. While their capacity to learn might be superior to mine, they suffer from the same drawback I used to: they’re sick of learning and would rather party hard rather than study. I, on the other hand, no longer suffer from youth rebellion and I’d say I have the ability to learn somewhat easier, faster and more efficient than them. In theory at least.
Sure, it might seem that all I do is lurk forums, play games and sleep all day, but I’ve gotten pretty fucking good at multitasking. As I write this I’m thinking about the Laws of Motion, working, listening to music and mapping out project roadmaps. My mental capacity is still at (most) of its efficiency and the time to act is now, if I ever want to be a genuine rocket surgeon (Cheesus K. Reist I’d love to be able to have that on a business card).
I’m considering getting into YouTube lately, at least as a hobby as I don’t intend to monetize my videos. I might start a Patreon account, though, since I’m not made of money and video production implies some costs. So far I haven’t really decided what I want to do. Gaming? Seems redundant. There are already so many wannabe gamer channels. Physics? Doesn’t seem to be that be that big of an audience. Tech? That needs money. I might pull an AvE or Big Clive and do stupid shit on camera for the benefit of whoever shows interest in my stupidity. I’ll need to ponder on this further.
In the meantime I have 3 days left of work and a well deserved vacation planned for a few days after.
Vault Tec will see more work after my vacation and hopefully I can get that sorted by the end of next month.